Trusting the Narcissist

HAS ME ALL TIED UP!! In a weak moment I said yes. I always said I would say no but I didn’t think he’d do it.

I know I shouldn’t be invested in what he thinks or says, but it’s hard. He’s my husband. And you always hope and pray things will change. It will take an act of God for that to happen though!!

I wrote a story. I was vulnerable through the characters – pains, dreams . . . a future. Now he’s about done reading and he knows my heart.

THAT SCARES THE CRAP OUT OF ME!!!

I’ve come up with an out – a way to blow it off but it will still hurt when he mocks my heart.

In some ways he tried to help but in others he’s already told me it wasn’t good. He didn’t use those words but let me know. I know I’ll never measure up.

I had told him a long time ago he wouldn’t like it. He wasn’t the audience.

This is going down as one of the most stupid things I’ve ever done . . . Like I didn’t know better.